I am no longer man
I am just simply waste
a shell of my regret
just taking up space
when I look in the mirror
all I see is regret
I would look so much nicer
fucking hanging from my neck
I've never hated something quite how I've hated myself
instead of malice it's a numbing disdain
but even this doesn't do anything to take from the pain
all I want is to put a fucking gun up to my brain
so dig my skin and break my bones
for all I know it's ending this
spinning and sucking my blood from my pores
tearing flesh eating through all thats left
putting and end to the stress
and to hell with the rest
burdened me, through
just let me forget
the pain I have caused
to those I held close
and the bitch of it all
is I am the worst
of the scum that I hate
so helpless
a man lost in himself
a martyr for a sense of death
and under crushing stress
and worthless and hurt
these leeches and sucking
steal life from me
don't pretend like you know worse
will you listen to me now
when I'm screaming
I'm screaming so loud
before I start ti seep below
dig a hole and tell this gun to
blow