drag a blade through my eyes
filter out the lies
and despite all my efforts
I don't feel alive
in sickness and in death
I feel fucking pain in my chest
so I put you on a pedestal
and drag my knuckles
searching my legs for strength
not to buckle
I'm useless and I'm weak
this fallacy on repeat
a basket case man
neurotic from narcotics
and hoping I'm a man
I'm useless and washed up
a low down fuck
but the truth
is that I love this pain
it's the only way to stay sane
so tell me that I'm crazy
take this knife from my hand
another nail in my head
to make me forget
all the lies I see in your eyes
I know I know I know
my words have no worth
and I can't see anymore
so sew my mouth shut
leave me dead on the street
with nothing but this
mute message to speak